:'DDDDDDD!!!
I PASSED MAH GED! I NOW AM OFFFIIICCIIAALLYY GRADUATED. D; ...Even tho its not a high school diploma from graduating its still worth alot and I will be able to get a job easier. oo;
SO YEAH THATS MAH UPDATE. That is all. Iluvyouall.
;3;

-DRAWS LIKE CRAZY OMG-

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WATCH IT. LOVE IT. ;D Subscribe it. (Its youtube people. No fee's. Unlike DA. )
xD Lol its my youtube. I make amvs alot. Please at least take a look at them~ D;
I luv chu guys so much ;3;

I wanted to finally introduce my Youtube account so here it is. xD
I'm not that good. oo;

...And i also have somethin' else to say but I'm gonna get supah flamed by my members.
Anyway.
HI THAR. Finally drama has settled down! (For the most part.)
Exept with things here and there but either way.
Well actually its more like I'm getting better to adapting.
ANYWAAAY. THE QUESTION.
THE QUESTION I LAY BEFORE YOU ALL TODAY ISSSSSS....

How many people would DAWatch me if i made a new DA account? ;A;
Cause' I dont want to lose all my wonderful watchers if i switch accounts, ;3;

So tell me if you will watch me. The reason for this is..
Lord-fluffy is kindaaa getting old. uu; And I will spit out the truth right now even tho i hate to admit it. It DID Originate from Sephiroth and i used to love him.
And...well, its not that i dont like him. But he's just not for me. ;3;
But if i have enough people that luff me(lol i hope this doesn't sound like bribe) then
i will make a new one.~

And...I'm wondering if I should post this next thing on DA or not. Its an emotional issue.
Relating a character.
....<_< ...>_>
T T; I hate being 'indecisive'. For a long time, i was Roxas. Until just recently.
I was concerned with the cosplaying height issue so me and my Axel switched places.
However...I just found out how connected I am to my Roxas muse. I think its mostly
cause I have been rping him for..God knows how long. Lets just say a long time. And i've made a ton of videos with him and everyone CALLS me Roxas on Youtube and Yahoo and.. It kinda sinks into you y'know? Its my fault but not my fault. Mostly my fault though because i let myself get attached. T T; But now I've become more 'carefree' so to speak.
-Sighs.- So before anyone gets all mad, (referring to two of my members specifically, you know who you are) This is something that doesnt even have to do with height, or pairings, or anything. Its just me..Well I've become more emotionally attached than I thought. ==; And yet somehow I was willing to give him up like I did. What kinda logic is that? I know its ridiculous. And now its like my mind is telling me. 'YOU IDIOT. YOU WORRIED ABOUT APPEARANCE MORE THAN THE CHARACTER ITSELF.'
Yes i know this is a bit too intense. xD; JUST for a character. But I've developed it and i've hardly rp'd Axel...And to my XigXig's amusement, I will admit, I am NOT good at being seme. Well. A seme with an attitude such as Axels. Lulz.
Well exept when I'm Roxas and thats the only time and its only to certain people.
= =; Anyway. If i go into anymore rants about that, it will only make those two people angry.
Mostly just one of them. <_<;
/: I should've just not said anything before to her. I wish i could say 'Can we pretend that never happened? That we never had that conversation and we never switched characters?'
I..could care less about height issue now and more about the character themselves. And that line right there is gonna get me a shitload of rants. x X Lol.
All i can say is im terribly sorry and I WAS concerned about heights but now its just like..'carefreeee~'
I think it all depends on my mood. ==; And that night, i dunno what kinda mood I was in. But sometimes you haven't experienced it, but i say alot of wierd things at night.
<<...Although saying you were cute, wasnt a lie-/SHOTSHOT.
Im already in deep enough as it is. = =

Alright now..moving on from that.
I have REQUESTS TO DO. A SHIIIZZZLOAAAD of em'!
xD
Okay heres the ones i will be doing and sorry if they aren't done in order(cause i dont remember the order T T; )
For - Her OC. Uh crap. I cant remember what she wanted with it though. I'll just make it cute. xD Yes i havent forgotten completely but she might've. xD;;
For (Luuvvs youu~)- Pikachu on a one wheeled bike thing. 8DDDD LMAO.
For - Sorry its late, luvie. D; But i'll get it done. MarDem. Foshizzle.
For - SatoshixDaisuke. OHYEAH. D; I went and searched long and hard to find her message so i could remember the request. XD More like i volunteered.
For - BAHA. 8D Either Matt. Or MattxMello. I think i will do MattxMello though and make it supah cute
For - This is somethin' i volunteered for.~ :3 Roxas, Namine, Kairi and Sora, laying in such a way that it looks like their bodies are shaped in a heart. xD Muahah~
And i think thats it.. oo; WOO!
OH AND AS A CONSELLATION( Wait doesnt that mean stars?...)TO
I will be doing an AxelxRoxas pic. ;3; -Flails arms at.-
No matter how mad you may get at me i still love you.~
No matter how much you may hate my decisiveness, i still love you~
No matter how much we fight i still love you.
Because the one thing i will never be decisive about is loving you, at least as a friend.


Im sorry if that was sappy lulz. u//u;
I love too.
I miss both of you so much.

Also on a side note. I hope that gets to feeling better.~ I know she's been through alot of drama lately. I dunno if she's gonna read this or not but she knows that no matter what i support her and luff her. ;3;
Roxmuse and oocly i luffles too.
I'm not taking sides in this fight but i love both of them. ;3;
We've been through alot and I'm glad I have them as friends.
And of course Xigxig. ;3; Ooohlawd. Luv you too. Uh. I cant remember how to spell your DA name though so i can't give a link. x X
I will later though. xD Once i find it.

Anywho. Thats my basic update. I still dont have a job though and im 'atiently'
waiting for my results from the GED.
OHYEAH THATS RIGHT. I DIDNT TELL YOU GUYS I TOOK IT. DDD:
Luulz. I took my GED last monday and tuesday. It was shitty.
Well for the most part. I REALYY HOPE I PASSED.
The rooms were hot the first day, or most of it, cause the lightning storm knocked out the power the night before. Dx
The next day though, it was hella cold. ==; And i walked home both days. Which wasnt too bad exept for the fact it was raining. DDD:
The school itself was AMAAZING THOUGH~ It wasnt exactly what i expected but it was close. ;3;
Its one of those old schools. Its called Bolten High. Search it, its in Alexandria, Lousiana.
D; I WISH I COULD'VE DONE SOME COSPLAY SHOOTS THERE~ ; ; That would've been soooo amazing.
But alas, im away from my group. T T; Still.
This Christmas we may have something up though so please watch our Cosplay account.~

T T; I cant wait for Decemmmbeeerrr. I'll also get to meet people~ :3 Hopefully new members.

is one. >3< And i cant wait to meet this other girl again that i met at con~
I hope when i go back to Arizona that its perminant. But if it is, then you wont be seeing me way too often but i will try to update as much as i can. ;3;
I LOVE YOU ALLLL~~~~ >3<
-Overusage of the ~.- D;

Alright that pretty much wraps it up. <3! Luvies you all~


Members of SoaringHeartsPro:
-Sora
- ...
- ...
- Namine. :3
- Xion( So far )

OKAY THATS F***ING IT. Im SO tired of drama and if you try to create some i will not hesitate to b**** you the f*** out. Yay censored cursing. /: I am getting quite the attitude.
But do you know WHY THE HELL THAT IS!?
I'll tell you why.
BECAUSE I HAVE TO DEAL WITH A BUNCH OF UNNESSESARY SH** EVERY SINGLE DAY. ; ; Im so sick of it. You wonder why im depressed ? THIS IS WHY:

One: My parents yell at me just about 24/7. My step-dad recently claimed i am addicted to the computer :'D AM I ADDICTED? I THINK NOT. He said i was though then he reffered to it like a drug addiction. WHAT THE HELL.
He also got drunk one night and went a little.. No. MORE THAN A LITTLE LOOPY. /<
I got so agitated with him. Not gonna go into detail about that though..But he always gets inside my head , ALL THE TIME. Says im a failure, that im so screwed up in the head. That i have some serious issues and he doesnt ever see change and that i ,quote, make him feel like he's "Ramming his head into a brick wall until its bloody"
And not to mention all the guilt trips he puts on me. That both of my parents do. All the time.

Two: Moms been sick all the time. So she also yells at me when she is up because we hardly ever see each other. That is not my fault and i do visit her every so often during the day to check up on her and stuff and help. /:

Three: I HAVE SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP ISSUES APPARENTLY. /: Got my heart broken,repaired then broken again then repaired again then BROKEN AND REPAIRED AND BROKEN AND REPAIRED. YOUR GOING TO F***ING RUN OUT OF REPAIR TAPE. I am so sick of drama in the relationship thing. -Leaves out something.- I also got in a huge ..uh ..'tiff' as you call it with a close friend/ex of mine. We " patched it up' now but i still cant forget it completely.
If you want details on that, you'll have to send me a Note. /:

Four: ...I miss Arizona. Hella bad. I miss my friends,my cosplay group i was creating. But mainly just my friends. God i cry about every day now STILL. Recently my friend had some issues and i havent even talked to her yet but i know what happened and its not my place to say. But i was really worried and STILL worried. And hating the Sh** out of myself for the fact i CANT BE THERE FOR HER. Personally! Shes my best friend and when she needs her friends the most i cant be there. I feel really horrible.
I love her so much and i wish i could just take the Greyhound right this second and go down there.
I have the money but i dont have the money to LIVE there. I dont even have a job yet sadly.

God everything has been stressing me out lately. Not to mention alot of my friends have had issues and random others tend to love to b**tch at me for no apparent reason. /<
I wish all of this would end already..
Ive been so depressed and like hardly anything cheers me up anymore exept my yahoo friends and my friends here on DA but even then i go right back in a slump.
I have some serious issues. So i apologize highly.
I will eventually get back on track and get out of this state of depression but i dont know when that will be.

...And if you comment, do NOT leave me some arrogant comment about how your life is more f***ed up or something and that im a retard for thinking like this. YOU DONT KNOW HALF OF WHAT GOES ON. YOU HAVE NO IDEA. Im not saying my life is WORSE than anyones but im just saying i dont want to hear other drama that will upset both you and me. Not what i want at all. So please leave a nice comment? Kthx.

Im sorry this is such a b***chy journal. But now you know. And im sorry that you had to read my rant. Again. Have a wonderful day/life. Ily you all.
I just wish someone would..hug me. ._. But i dont have anyone..Noone is here physically.
; ; -Cries.-

ITS MY 19th BIRTHDAY OHSHIZ. -Didnt even do art!-SPAZSPAZ- Well okay..It WAS my 19th birthday but i got a lil sidetracked and didnt post it on DA /<


Yea this journal is basically another update. A BRIEF UPDATE.
Cause im tired as fuck and just wanting to curl up in my bed right now.
Its 3am. ee; </3

...I currently am actually working on a Sokai(SoraxKairi) amv on youtube owO
OH
Btw, if you want to see my current vids, my Youtuber name is StrawberryWings
If you just search that, at least one of my vids will come up then you can look at the rest.
;w; -Would love you forever and make you muffins.Bribebribe.-
JUST KIDDING. But please. Go view them at least maybe? ;O;

Drawings im working on right now(NO NOT RIGHT THIS SECOND CAUSE IM GOING TO BED):

-Pikachu on a one-wheeler bike thingy. x'D

-Sora/Kairi picture. o-o Dont ask.

-ROXASPICTURESOHYES.

-Luxord and Roxas ftw? ;D *PedoSHOT*

-MOREROXAS. ;D

- ...Riku >3

- LOLIMSOKINGDOMHEARTS OBSEESSEEDD.

- This one chicks OC ;w; Shes a cutie. And shes drawing me a Roxas picture in return i believe. -3-; <3 -Happy noise.-

-TAKING REQUESTS. SORT OF. <_< Dont pile them on me though, PLEASE. Or i will just say screw requests.

Ive been dealing with a crapload of drama lately and i wont go into all of it but its made me to the point where i can't draw, and went into a very long slump, so yea. /:
But soon i'll start drawing again so please dont forget about me! ;w;

Btw, i didnt do much for mah b-day. At exactly midnight i got a call from my BFF for srs, and she sang the happy birthday song to me. It made me so happy x'D

And i got an mp3 player. One that holds..more than 100 songs! -Other one held only a hundred.- >>; This one holds like..2,000. Shiz man thats alot. o_O